Elijah before she became female and had a name was just an idea residing in the back of my mind where she slowly built herself up and made an echo for me to hear so I could lend her an ear. To be honest this character had been with me since I was a young lad with no compass or whatever, she soothed me in my days in pain, sang me to sleep, embraced me whenever needed and I only thought of her as a fairy godmother that was there whenever needed, a protective angel that loved me unconditionally. Growing up, she grew with me but became this mystic shadow that I cannot catch a glimpse of nor hear, she faded further in the dark as I refuted her existence afraid of my own femininity in a world that had patriarchy as a synonym. As I drove her further into nothingness she sought my comfort whenever depressed, ill, or simply bored yet I only used her for my own ends. Many of my characters were treated badly in my teenage years because I was simply afraid of going psychotic and for a teenager who wished nothing but acceptance and be labeled normal for once, I hanged them one by one without a thought yet she survived alongside some lucky few. Imagination was a seed grown of devil spawn I heard once told and afraid to let them see the colors of my worlds I shut them bloody and turned them as colorless, as lifeless as my own life. I visited them from time to time, ashamed of what has been and what turned out to be as I awoken as a young man ready to conquer high-school. I have sought refuge in their laps for numerous times and sought forgiveness for what I have done, what I have become and benevolent as they were they forgave me; their father, their mother, their brother, and their friend. Last year I had a visit from Elijah wishing to be set free from the shackles of the life within, begging to be heard and to live forever in ink, so I obliged yet I forgot who she truly was, having no clue what story she stemmed of or what depth she had I kept on slacking down afraid I will never know. Here steps present blog, a salvation for her and the gateway for me to understand her story, colors, characteristics amongst other things and let the world witness the beauty of this still to be understood versatile character.
Embark with me in this new journey of discovery, get to participate in the molding process of this character, see her bloom, and let her introduce herself to you.